Eleanor Rigby

My demon loves to take paper and cut it up and color it and make stuff. I have a tiny little vampire that she made me when I wasn't thinking and let her use a piece of card stock instead of paper. Maybe I did it subconciously on purpose so I could keep it.

Two weekends ago while I was coloring in one of our 500 coloring books and she was cutting and coloring with her markers, (we were never allowed to have markers, see how good I am) she said it was too quiet and asked me to turn on music.

That caught me by surprise since she has ADHD and that means that even in silence she has a million things scrolling through her poor little brain all the time.

When I was in middle school and high school I HAD to have music playing while doing my homework or reading a book, for background. Before the meds I would turn on the classical channel on the TV while we did her homework. Yes, she's in Kindergarten and has homework. I think I might have mentioned that before. She asked me to turn it off so she could concentrate. Oops, forgot that the music in the background made the ADHD harder to deal with. My bad.

Anyway.

When we're coloring and making things it was too quiet so she asked me if I could play some music. I jumped up, turned on iTunes as fast as I could and went to the fastest thing I could scroll down to.

I was brought up with my parents listening to oldies and the lastest hits of the day that my Uncle's would play for me. I guess I sang a darn good version of "Hot Blooded". I pulled up the Beatles and let it play through the list. When it got to Eleanor Rigby, as it was ending, she asked if I could play it again because she thought it sounded very beautiful. So I gave into the Queen's demands. After hearing it three times in a row I just let it move on to the next song.

The next day she asked me before school if I could put the "lovely people" song on her iPod. I told her they're LONELY people. "Oh, can I still have it on my iPod".

Ever since I've had it in my head, almost three weeks now. We've watched tons of videos playing that song on YouTube, and we must listen to it all the time. She even hums and sings it to herself while she's playing Animal Crossing or coloring.

I know she's only going to be gone for almost a week since Dickhead has her for Spring Break this week, but...aah, do I feel like Eleanor Rigby.

I hate being away from my demon and not knowing what she's doing. I guess I have emotional detachment issues.